“CHAPTER EIGHT: FORGIVENESS
Tyrone was reading as I was entering the cell from the hole. He said, “Welcome back brother. How do you feel?” I fell to my knees from keeping that feeling bottled up inside. “Man I feel so bad Tyrone. All month what I did to that guy has been on my mind. I want to go apologize, but I know that is out of the question. What should I do man!?! I searched the Bible on what to do for God to forgive me, but I don’t understand. It said something about repentance.” Of course, I was saying the word wrong and Tyrone corrected me, “It’s repentance /rəˈpentəns/ brother. I will tell you all about it. If you are sincere in seeking forgiveness, simply ask God for it in prayer. Then, you must do your best to never do that thing again.”
Obviously, I did like most do. So, I asked, “So all we have to do it ask God for forgiveness and he grants it just like that?” Tyrone chuckled and replied, “No brother. Once again, you have to be sincere, meaning you have to mean it.” I was then starting to understand more of what Tyrone meant. It was hard, but I did feel better. Look at me…again with the feeling.
So I got down on my knees, but before I began to pray Tyrone stopped me and asked, “Why did you get on your knees?” I replied, “This is what my wife and kids do. I figured this is how you prayed, is that right?” Tyrone said, “You can pray on your knees, but it’s not a necessity. However, to show how humble you are in your repentance, stay there for now.” So then I prayed, “Our Father, which art in Heaven, Hallowed by thy name. God, I come before you asking for forgiveness for my actions. I let my anger get the best of me. I hurt a man. I ask now for forgiveness and I pray I can move on from this. In Jesus’ name, amen.”
I didn’t feel relieved right away, but as time went on throughout the day I started to feel better. I saw the man again that day and apologized to him. He didn’t respond to me. He just looked, nodded and went on about his way. I am not sure what that meant, but I did feel better after doing so. I was definitely growing, but I had a lot of growing to do. However, I was not ready for what happened next.”